Merry Christmas

Back Yard Neighbors

I'm staring at a picture of my back yard neighbor....it makes me happy. Clay passed on a few weeks ago. His daughter dropped off a Christmas gift and card tonight.

Inside the card was this wonderful picture.

I didn't know him well, but I knew his smile.

I'll miss seeing him....through the back yard fence

Loss

Friday-funeral for 31 year old. His wife, due in two weeks with their 3rd child. Friends from another life time there.

So many mixed emotions.

Memories of our child, our grandchild. Both gone too early. Too early for us. Who knows God's time line.

Memories of lost friendships.... lost opportunities. lost relationships.

loss, loss, loss. Everywhere I turn.

Time without Taylor. Time without his mission, his falling in love, his getting married, his having children.

Time without Taylor Ammon-watching him grow into a beautiful young man-loss of his wife and children...(our family seems so small).

Loss of trust.

Loss of health.

Loss of friendships.

Loss of innocence.

I live with a broken heart yet I don't want a new one.

I hope that all that I've lost along the way will one day be made whole.

I hope to have all the pieces of my soul put back in place and welded together.

To be unified in heart instead of fragmented and broken pieces....

Stronger for the wear.