The Weighting Game
Last night as I'm sitting down to enjoy some hot baked cookies, I casually mention to Trev that I'm thinking of going on medi-fast-a liquid diet.
What was I thinking saying such a ridiculous thing to my fitness trainer, highest certification in the country son! Especially, while eating hot caramelized chocolate chip covered cookies!!!
For the next several(seemed like a life time)minutes my weight was the topic of discussion. Well, actually, my complaining about my weight while eating such non-conducive weight losing things such as the cookies I was trying to enjoy. Jen, soon found a reason to leave the room and my always supportive husband chimed in(as I was defending how little I'd eaten on Sunday)that I had forgotten the 170 calorie protein drink I had while at church. Hello! Was that really necessary to point out!!!
I know what I need to do to lose weight. There are all kinds of excuses or reasons; i.e. being tired, time, escape, whatever....they don't really matter. If I wanted to do it, I'd do it.
I keep looking for something that will give me that extra motivation. Whether it's a quick fix(liquid diet), asking Trev for help, joining a group....I'm just trying to get motivated by SOMETHING. But I know, until I WANT TO DO IT it's not going to happen. And the last thing I want is for anyone to feel responsible for me eating healthy.
Since we're living under the same roof these days, it complicates things. Even though I have asked for help, and talked about eating like Trev and Jen, in reality I don't want to feel monitored. Home is where I go to relax and be myself and do what I want to do, good or bad.
No doubt, some good changes will occur because they are living with us; like the vegi burgers they prepared for dinner the other night, and bike riding with Baylie, and having all the extra love and life in the home...This makes me very happy!
I know my kids love me and that they worry about my health. My not being active and at a reasonable weight, is a new thing to all of us. But what is, is.
I'm actually in a pretty good place right now and can see a desire growing to become more active and to eat more healthy foods. I've been making some subtle changes, and I see that as moving in the right direction.
Honestly, this is the first time in my life I've taken vitamins! So good things are happening.
What was I thinking saying such a ridiculous thing to my fitness trainer, highest certification in the country son! Especially, while eating hot caramelized chocolate chip covered cookies!!!
For the next several(seemed like a life time)minutes my weight was the topic of discussion. Well, actually, my complaining about my weight while eating such non-conducive weight losing things such as the cookies I was trying to enjoy. Jen, soon found a reason to leave the room and my always supportive husband chimed in(as I was defending how little I'd eaten on Sunday)that I had forgotten the 170 calorie protein drink I had while at church. Hello! Was that really necessary to point out!!!
I know what I need to do to lose weight. There are all kinds of excuses or reasons; i.e. being tired, time, escape, whatever....they don't really matter. If I wanted to do it, I'd do it.
I keep looking for something that will give me that extra motivation. Whether it's a quick fix(liquid diet), asking Trev for help, joining a group....I'm just trying to get motivated by SOMETHING. But I know, until I WANT TO DO IT it's not going to happen. And the last thing I want is for anyone to feel responsible for me eating healthy.
Since we're living under the same roof these days, it complicates things. Even though I have asked for help, and talked about eating like Trev and Jen, in reality I don't want to feel monitored. Home is where I go to relax and be myself and do what I want to do, good or bad.
No doubt, some good changes will occur because they are living with us; like the vegi burgers they prepared for dinner the other night, and bike riding with Baylie, and having all the extra love and life in the home...This makes me very happy!
I know my kids love me and that they worry about my health. My not being active and at a reasonable weight, is a new thing to all of us. But what is, is.
I'm actually in a pretty good place right now and can see a desire growing to become more active and to eat more healthy foods. I've been making some subtle changes, and I see that as moving in the right direction.
Honestly, this is the first time in my life I've taken vitamins! So good things are happening.
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